As I sit here on December 30th, 2024, inside my car—the place I’ve called home for the past five months—I wanted to record a message to my future self. A reminder of where I started, what I’ve struggled through, and what I’m fighting for as I continue my YouTuber journey.
Today, my channel sits at 731 subscribers. Not a huge number to some, but to me, each one of those subscribers represents someone who believed in my story, my struggles, and my dream of making it on YouTube. I told myself I would post this video exactly one year later—December 30th, 2025—to see where I stand.
🚗Living in a Car: The Reality of 2024
2024 has been one of the toughest years of my life. For months, I’ve been living in my car, balancing a truck-driving job, recording YouTube videos, going to the gym when I can, and trying not to fall apart mentally.
Car life isn’t glamorous. Some days, the car is messy, cold, or uncomfortable. But it has taught me resilience. It has taught me hunger—not the physical hunger, but the hunger to build something bigger with my life.
🎬My YouTuber Journey – 2018 to Now
I started my YouTube journey back in 2018.
Six whole years of grinding, uploading, dreaming, failing, trying again, and refusing to quit.
Sometimes it feels like YouTube is killing my mental health, especially when I’m juggling night shifts, CDL training, editing during the day, and barely sleeping. But the passion has never died.
2024 reminded me of one thing:
If you want something badly, you have to keep fighting for it.
🎯My Goal: Road to 1,000 Subscribers
My hope for 2025 is simple:
Reach 1,000 subscribers.
Get monetized.
Feel like all this chaos led somewhere.
If December 2025 arrives and I’m still not at 1K… then yeah, I’ll probably question everything. But even then, I know I’ll keep pushing. Because this YouTuber journey isn’t just about numbers—it’s about becoming the person who never gives up.
🌆Dreaming of a Life Beyond Chicago
In the video, I talked about maybe moving to New York one day, or anywhere that feels peaceful. Living in a car in Chicago winters is no joke. My hope for the future is simple:
A roof.
Peace.
A place I can finally call home.
📩A Message to My Future Self
I told my future self this:
“Josh, I hope you made it. I hope you’re happier. I hope you’re out of the car. I hope you didn’t give up.”
Whether I reach 1,000 subscribers or not by next year, I’ll still be trying new things, still creating, still pushing forward.
🎆Happy New Year — And Don’t Give Up
2024 was survival mode.
2025 is growth mode.
2026… that’s the year I believe everything changes.
To anyone reading this:
Don’t give up on your dreams.
Even when life feels impossible.
Even when you’re living in your car.
Even when no one believes in you yet.
Keep going.
Keep creating.
Keep fighting.
Because one day, everything you’re working for will be worth it.
National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI): https://nami.org
BetterHelp (online therapy): https://www.betterhelp.com
988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline: https://988lifeline.org
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